Friday, March 6, 2009

Crazy Genius


I am reading a really good book right now, Uncommon, by Tony Dungy. I have to admit, it is really a book for young men and fathers. I will give it Chris when I am done, because it primarily deals with how to be a godly young man, and that is Chris' area of expertise. But a lot of the book translates to anyone who has experienced trials and tribulations, and has attempted to do too many things at one time. So, it's a book for all of us.

Tony Dungy was a great success by all standards. A college graduate, a professional football player, an NFL coach, one of three men to ever win a Superbowl ring as a player and a coach, and the first African American coach to win a Superbowl. And then he stopped. He just retired. Right in his prime. He walked away from fame and fortune. Crazy.

Or Genius? He has a wife and kids and clearly devotes a lot of prayer, thought and time to fulfilling those roles as God wants him to do. He cares very passionately about a particular tragedy in our culture, the lost young man who is not grounded in family or faith. And he doesn't blather on in the book about how easy everything is for him, how he's a great success as a father and husband (although you come away thinking he surely is). One of his chapters begins, "Getting up in the morning is not for the faint of heart." Truer words were never spoken. It's even hard for famous people, apparently.

The book makes me appreciate my husband, Eric, very much. He has great character. He takes care of his family. He has no Superbowl ring or million dollar book deal. He's a really smart guy who could probably make a mint as a doctor if he chose that route. But instead he is a nurse who helps victims of trauma and devestating illness. At home, he does the small things so very well--doing the dishes when they are staring me down, walking the dog when I am pooped, making dinner for the family (he got the cooking genes, not me), being at every soccer game and karate class that he can.

Clergyman Phillips Brooks wrote that "character may be manifested in the great moments, but it is made in the small ones." In that sense, Eric is very like Tony Dungy, it seems to me. Doing the small things that build his character, and in the process, modeling for our daughters what a husband and father is supposed to be. He's a crazy genius, I guess.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Be Still

Like most moms, I have been wishing for more free time. Many times have I thought, "if I just had two days to myself, that would be bliss." Yet I run from work to soccer practice to errands to family events . . . just waiting for a breather.

But of course, that is our own doing. We choose to do too much in too short of a period of time. We actually have the ability and the right to slow down. Why don't we?

Is it because we want to be über -- the greatest mom, wife, employee, friend, that we can be? If so, there is a usual result: everything suffers. And for me, there is a sure result: I fail to meet all of those aspirations.

Right now I'm concentrating on what God tells us about rest. He tells us that there is a Sabbath day (Exodus 20:10), made for us to use (Mark 2:27), and that at other times as well we should rest after work (Mark 6:31). Christ told the apostles after they reported their work and teachings that they were to "come away by yourselves to a deserted place and rest a while." Jesus rested. God the Father rested. Isn't it a bit arrogant for me to think that I don't need the same?

The Scripture that sticks in my mind most right now is "be still and know that I am God" (Psalm 46:11). That is so hard for people, especially moms wearing a number of different hats everyday. And for me, honestly, I don't want to do it. I don't want to be still. That means I'm lazy or not in control. And that's not what I want to be, or maybe more accurately, that's not what I want others to think I am.

Today I start a sabbatical from law practice for a few months. I'm worried about not being busy enough, or perhaps I'm more worried about other people thinking I'm lazy or walking way from my duties and commitments.

But busyness can be bad. In fact, often it's bad, for me at least. If I'm too busy, I'm likely not focused on the people I should be focused on--my family, my friends. And most of all, God.

So, here's hoping I can be still. And know that He is God.